There is only so much Netflix I can watch. Plus I’m out of Oreos and since I’m still in my undies I don’t want to put shorts on and go get more.
What am I going to do now, I’m still home alone.
I am going to party it up, by eating an entire thing of Oreos and watching Disney movies on Netflix while chilling in my underwear.
YAY ADULT LIFE!
I just want a guy that will build forts with me, watch Disney movies, hang out in a blanket burrito, love pizza as much as I do and just Disneybound with me randomly just because.
That’s probably too much to ask for.
Well not one of my own, just one to take care of and dress up for a bit then give them back at the end of the day.
My 3 month old niece and nephew are so freaking cute. I just love that baby smell. it’s so cute how the little things make them smile and laugh.
its a drive from the freeway and it’s at the end of the street up a hill. It’s pretty secluded.
I basically have to make sure that the kid stays alive, the dogs eat and the house is safe.
So Im basically going to be bored since the child can take care of herself and is attached to her iPad.
They are staying at their dads in Tijuana, which is in Mexico.
Pretty sure my sister is more worried than they are. It’s their first weekend away from the house.
They really want to go, cause we told them wifi is not available and they still said yes to going.
Let’s see how they do. My sister and I think their dad will be calling with in a few hours asking for help lol
Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Or was it something he felt or didn’t? Did he find someone new?
I’ve been wanting to send him a message to ask, then again a part of me doesn’t want to talk to him at all.
Ugh this all just ugh
It was nice. He was nice. Total nerd, I don’t think he got some of my jokes. We walked the pier and the beach. We talked about life, school, and past experiences. We hugged at the end. It was a nice hug. It was one of those I feel safe and secure in hugs. He is a good hugger. He has really pretty eyes. He’s 6’4. (Molly I now know how you feel when you walk with us, lol) we almost accidentally held hands, our shoulders and hands would brush up on each other. We might hang out again. As of right now I see this working out as a friendship if anything does happen.
It was good for me to get out of the house and get some sun. My house right now is so depressing I can’t take it.
Today was a better day, we are getting progress. I didn’t have a panic attack today.
they still haven’t set up a date for the wake and the burial for my abuelita. I mean I could change my flight for the 20th of august but I need to get to new york now. I have job hunting to do and moving in to do.
I am suppose to leave on wednesday. I don’t know what to do. I wish I had enough frequent flyer miles to be able to leave wednesday for new york and then be able to roundtrip for the services, but that is not possible.
I will never get the chance to scream at the top of my lungs “mameche quiero leche”
She found it funny when I did that growing up. She thought it was creative and that I was using my brain
I keep wanting to wake up from this nightmare, then I realize I am awake.
my abuelita is really gone.
I wish I was in a financial situation to cancel my flight on wednesday and leave once her funeral happens.
Another part of me wants for everything to happen within the next two days so I can say my last goodbye to her without having to change my flight.
Another thing that sucks is that I still don’t know how she died. I don’t know if she suffered or if she die peacefully. my mom and sister went over to her house. Due to the nature of the situation I stayed home with the bugs since they are still asleep.
I hate being alone, I’ve had a couple panic attacks since my mom and sister left, my chest feels tights, I can’t breathe, my body feels numb, my head hurts, everything is blurry, I can’t stop crying, I feel like I am going to faint and I also feel like I am going to puke.